I make my mind run infinite laps before stepping one foot inside the more tired it gets the easier it is to live thoughts don't get fed and my eyes dry out so no tear can come visit staying alive has become the goal because emotion has failed me passions have deserted me cold and naked against my trembling bones holding on for dear life ****** hands gripping thin veins legs dangling in the smog in my heaving lungs moments of anguish cage me binding my feathers around my neck until I breathe nothing but bricks may sleep; my temporary escape bring me solace in my chaos and morning be gentle on me as my dark feelings awaken at the same time I do