aside from shame, i think fear is the worst feeling there is it’s one of the ones that physically affects you it causes intense pounding in the chest, but not from your heart beating no it more like someone banging on the inside your chest cavity as if it’s filling up with water and they’re drowning it makes you weak at the knees, and fingertips your whole body is jumbled with muscle jerks and trembles and my gosh your mind imagine being stabbed in the skull in eight different spots all at once over and over and over and you go mute unable to express any of this outwardly you just look odd but your body is in flight or fight mode and you’re just choosing to sit and that’s what you do you sit in it let it eat you up in every way terrified out of your ******* mind
i have severe abandonment issues my boyfriend took my car this night, and had gotten lost with no way to contact me every other possible scenario had run thru my mind during the 5 hours he was lost