Numb to trepidation, apposed to emotions I choke on sensations, opening to oceans Of blood soaked remnants I can't fathom Begin to comprehend, or otherwise justify To myself
And It's square on my shoulders
If I like it or not
Sating my lust for life, finding out how To revel in spite, in spite of myself, honestly Grating, the thoughts that haunt me through Sleepless hours and all the mindless rambling I do To myself
I wanted to change, and I did
I did change
Bought at the current rate Life condensed to a price I wanted everyone to pay Besides me. Never me
I thought it free, until someone came around with The promise that they'd take it all away
Breaking ground, like the words I said What I say in my day to day Breaking ground, foray into something I'd call a grave mistake
Try to justify it, screaming at the sky Trying hard to hide what I swear I left behind Blame it on society. A scapegoat that never falters Hurdles that I prayed would change, and yet They never falter So, I blame it on you, and then you blame it on me
I blame it on myself
...
I blame myself.
What it always comes down to
And I turned into what I had always planned to turn into Go figure.