we both knew that we were in deep. we knew before it even started. actually, we're not even that deep. only six feet under the ground. prematurely dead and overly tortured. both feet in the grave. both with one hand over our eyes. both with one hand over our mouths. by the time we saw, there was nothing left to see. by the time we spoke, no one could hear. we were just that deep. just deep enough that we can't go back.