Sometimes I feel sick and tired. It usually goes away after a day. But lately I've felt worse. I've felt nauseated. I've felt like crying. And all for what?
I thought it was just a depressive episode. I thought I would feel better after a few hours of crying. But I just feel worse. I feel more sick and tired. The feeling that I will throw up anytime won't go away. Why do I feel this way?
I think it's because I feel so lonely. I feel isolated from the world around me. Yeah, I hang out with friends a lot. But I never really feel there. It's just so exhausting. Why is this happening?
I've always wanted a pet. To help me feel comforted. And make me stop feeling lonely. But sadly I can't have one. And I will be alone for what feels like forever. Why is the world so cruel?
My isolation follows me. It's there when I wake up. It's there when I'm with other people. It's even there to tuck me in at night. I still feel queasy. Why is it so involved in my life?
Why am I asking so many questions? Why is the light of the screen making my nausea worse? Why can't I stop crying? Why can't I think clearly? Why do I feel so lonely? Why?
I have felt really lonely for a long time now. I recently reunited with a cousin that I haven't seen in a while. She is probably one of the best and worst people I have ever conversated with. While she understands me in a way that no one else can, she also made me realize that I feel really lonely and sad all the time. I've been feeling nausea a lot lately as well. It *****.