On my knees.


I have lived a lonely life with no-one beside me.
I keep on climbing mountains, but nobody can see.
The person I hide inside, he holds me back,
From the demons; my own.  Riding the rails, one way, sad.


I have told the same old story a million times before.
I’ve fallen to my knees a million times or more,
But still I rise up to take another punch.
They never knock me out, but I have had enough.


I think I want to go, but this is where I am.
I am just a loser losing all the love I will ever have.
The love that no-one sees,
The words of poetry,
The hidden pieces of me,
Will never be seen.


Nobody gets close enough to let them in.
Nobody cares enough to notice the one they all call him.
I’m just a face upon a carton or telegraph pole.
I’m missing a woman to love and to hold.


I keep on struggling and doubling up in pain.
I keep on worrying and wondering, will it always be this way?
When will it all just go away?
When is my brighter day?


Words unanswered only leave me on my knees again.
I say a prayer, I wish for her, but she has not been written yet.
I cut my hair, become a word,
So she can say the thoughts inside her head.


Still unknown,
Still she has never shown the slightest interest.
She has never shown me that she cares,
But I still believe she is out there, whilst I remain hopeless.


I stare into the deep,
Continually wiping away the tears I weep.
She holds my key, but I am so weak.


I’m fading out,
So full of doubt.
I only want to live again,
But here and now I am without.


This, I think, is how it is going to be.
If only she could find her way to loving me.
If only.
If she did, I would be found;
I would be lifted up from the down.


Red Bull gives you wings;
She wants the *****,
How I need her.
I’m tea-totally weak.
Too quick to pass,
Upon this chance of romance.

I am on my knees.  Find me…


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