I like to write
things that no one reads.
I like to drink
until I can no longer think.
I like to sing
songs that no one knows.
I like to fantasize
that one day I'll feel whole.

I'm used to give some anything
with no hesitation.
I'm used to make others beg
for a little of my attention.
I talk about
everything that's in my mind.
I stay silent
for long periods of time.

I'm the best you can have.
I'm the worst you could meet.
I'll show you my angel
or I'll show you the beast.

I try to reinforce
my ideologies.
I try not to lose
my identity.
I try to live
enjoying every breath,
I try to speed up
my own death.

I'm a contradiction
of pushing and pulling.
I'm rising,
I'm falling.

I'm living.