all it took was one sunny day, together with whispers from the birds, saying that it will come
and the asphalt under your shoes tells the same story, the same as the trees, longing for cover as well as the smiles of the long forgotten people (and their happiness mesmerizes you) and suddenly, even the snow with its final breath agrees that ****, it is probably coming
And the conflict starts.
your heart that screams of drunkenness, of wanting to burst, to be too **** high, of being alive crashes into your logic, your brain, saying “but this is good too” that this is the balance you need, the safe, the expected. the love.
but when you’ve been starved for the ups the whole winter, eating only cold, white life it is hard to listen and the colours of spring entices you, making the black and white, the sense, draw its last breath as you walk away into the spring leaving all the beauty of winter to thaw out, leaving no trace except for a constant reminder of the cold parts in you that will never be warm