I feel my chest hurt like it’s going to cave in
I feel my heart start beating fast again
I can’t breathe
I can’t conceive

A single thought on my mind
Like it's on repeat and it grinds
What if she leaves me again
What if she cheats on me again

What if my mother passes
What if my whole life crashes
What if, what if, what if
I’m tired of “What if”

But i can’t control my thoughts
They have me in chains like i was bought
I am haunted by worries
If anxiety were stone I have an entire quarry

I do everything I can to not think about things
But when a worry crosses my mind it does with a bang
Like an explosion, you can’t just ignore it
Can’t just do nothing and just sit

So it eats me alive
Until i’m just a shadow of my former self