when i picture your white christmas the smell of your misltoe and the warmth of you fire
things i see through a dream and nothing more because you are not here and you must not be real
but i still hope and i still sing the songs inside my head and alongside with my heart and my blood that some day you will be back
though i know that there is nothing left to do but cope with the unsaid truth that my body seems to forget with the ugly fact that you are not coming back
and these holidays have made me tired of socializing so much and giving smiles for fun
i dont spend my christmas like the ones they show you on movies... for starters, there's no winter here