within then depths of my losses
lives a flicker of fleeting fate
where a fire burns
and it spells out your name
when i squint though the haze
i see you dance in the flames
and i think how my cold hands
could use you these days

i reach out to find
the warmth in your blaze
but suddenly it shrinks
and the flames start to fade
still i keep trying
using all of my strength
but the Light
and You
are completely erased

now darkness is growing
at astounding new rates
and i am left alone
filled with unfulfilling fate
so i build myself up
using mantras of praise
for abundance of Love
in me that always stays
no matter who’s near
or who fades far away

i open my eyes up
to peek at the bleak
darkness around me
it’s all my eyes see
  ”but wait”
  —calls out a Light within me
as i feel my heart beat
to the magic in me
it shines with a force
that the sun hasn’t seen
it dances to rhythms
my soul sings on key

soon my cold hands
are warmed by the heat
which flows from the flames
that first flickered in me
the ones i had tamed
just for spelling your name

but i am the warmth
i am all of the flames
what burns inside me
will forever remain

as does the truth
one that i misconstrued
about that great glow
i thought started in you
but you just reflected
the Light that i bloomed
i am the Sun
you just acted my moon

for no thing i see
exists outside of me
the fire is burning
always at my seams
glowing to guide me
and help me to see
alone on the paths
that lead me
back to me