you said that you would always be here with me, by my side, so i’m never alone.

you’re no where to be seen.

have i done something to repulse you so that you felt the need to lie to me.

i have always been here for you although you only seem to treat me as a second option.

but i’m still here, because i believed and continue to believe that you make me happy.

more than the word happy gives justice... you make me ecstatic, proud, and content with myself and us.

you make me feel secure.

at least you made me...

but i’m still here... trying to find security in others and places and things and ideas.

while you’re out there not giving a **** about me and my well-being because you’re not worried about your own security.

and i’m sorry that i wasn’t good enough for you to care about