I've scrapped the first fifteen versions of a poem I don't want to write or maybe I want to write it but I'm afraid I won't like it or am I just afraid of what I might say, of what my subconscious will convey?
Ink drying up like dried blood while the blood in my veins pulsates and my head throbs as I try to decipher how much of what has happened to me is actually because of me.
Is it me? Are my experiences mine because I made them so, or did I happen to just stumble into the darkness?
A sour mashup of self-love and self-loathing, it's like I have two minds intertwined double-analyzing double helix radioactive brain DNA
Am I great? Am I awful? Am I even worthy of such extremes? Where are all the adjectives to describe me? Can I write about it if it changes daily? Is it possible to know yourself perfectly and also not at all?
Questions generating more questions, hypothesizing Eye must seek before I find.