I’m becoming blurry When I look at myself in the mirror And I’m beginning to see His face through mine Instead of mine Like my body is disappearing into His Like if He wasn’t there I’d be completely invisible
Now I can’t get rid of Him.
Or I just don’t want to Because I don’t want to vanish Into thin air And be another ghost Wandering the streets I want to be seen Even if His eyes Are piercing through mine Even if the world is clouded because of it
Every time I blink My life seems to get a shade darker Until everything is disfigured From His pupils over mine And anything bright Seems out of place Forcing my eyelids back shut Until the dark returns
It’s funny That after I’ve been with someone For so long I become more and more like them With Him It’s no different I chose to let Him stay with me And as a consequence I’m fading into Him
It sounds cliche That maybe I need Him to survive Maybe I’d lose my identity without Him Maybe I’d be nothing… Maybe I’m too afraid To let go And find out
He’s given me a reason to live And a need to die But who am I to turn Him away?
I wonder If I’ll ever truly be able To see myself in the mirror again Or if I’ll forever Be looking through His eyes.