Preoccupation with making something permanent A feeling of expectation incorporation of a certain situation or habitation into life, for good It makes me freak out. Desire, for a certain thing to happen fear of that something actually happening Or that it's something that might be permanent. Worry, the attempt to find certainty the desire to control things. Control you, controlling me I'm afraid you'll find my black It will come back again. It's like an arc weld done incorrectly Eventually it will start to bleed And fall apart. But I dreamt about welding and you welding me into something permanent something desirable something non-penetrable. You had me molded against the truck and... I don't know who you are, but you put your fire in me So deeply it burns. A fire that firefighters can't dissolve Doctors can't resolve. You're in me, and I love you.