now we're in the backseat, and my stomachs turning. maybe i just want people in my life in an un-romantic way. i like to get under their skin, and steal their souls story. i love how everyone is different, and i can't hate a single thing, because it makes them human; the girls who steal bikes at midnight, and the guys who offer their apartment out at night. i find myself in the wrong crowd, i find myself in these situations, in the backseat, with someone who's speaks a language far from consent and it's all desperation. his hands on my neck, and there's no attraction, physically. mentally he has a way of making my head spin faster than the alchohol, and i'm not sure if i'm kissing him sober, or if the night itself is drunk, and i'm waiting for the sun to shine a light on my mistakes, as it always does. i take their stories, they take mine, but i'm not sure what part of it's true. the girl in the backseat, the girl shaking, the rigid lips and bites. maybe we won't speak, maybe he'll lecture me again, for using my body as a token to pay my way. love is an expensive thing.