i really want to do it.
i can do it.
it's not worth the wait. i don't want to wait so long.
it's mine, anyway. so it doesn't matter.
when i do it, it'll be over.
i'm just afraid that maybe i'm wrong. maybe it isn't mine.
that maybe if i do it, it won't be over.
and it'll be worse. not for me, but for them.
it'll be good for me. but i don't know what will happen to them.