Here I am again On the verge of tears Quiet I tell myself That way nobody will hear I pace the floor My family is sleeping But my mind is awake Abuzz with insecurities I tear myself apart Somehow I find myself Reaching for a blade I havenβt done that in 4 days I know it sounds crazy But it was the longest Iβd gone since March I reset the clock So now I wait To be so broken again All I can think of is destroying myself more