I had hope and I wished for us both. But I now realized that even if your feelings are real and my are too, your words of me are cold as ice. And though we laugh with true sheer joy there is a line you will not cross I would never doubt to do it but you will not budge. I love you with my whole heart and I can see why it's not the same for you, but at least be straigh and tell me how you feel. You know my life is hard but you don't know what inpact you had on me. Don't make it harder than it already is.