I hate you here I hate you there I wish not to hate because I am not one to hate, but I think about you way too much for someone that no longer cares
I think how you were, the things you asked of me
The things that were said, the things you screamed, the pain you charged at me
I still walk by that picnic table and think of that night you chased me down when I wanted to leave
I still look at that park and think of those nights full of tears and anguish
The stars we walked under, barely visible as if even they knew, the end was near the moon shined down a perfect light for our shadows to leap on
I still drive by that path we walked, the time you told me things you've not admitted to others before me
I remember thinking then that you were a complete mess, and not mine to fix, but still, it was so very hard to let go
It still is, and after the time that has gone by I saw your car just the other day It just set me ablaze
You ruined so many things for me, you laid out these lies that I was supposed to trust you laid out your fear, your anger that you held onto deeply the past, ours and yours it rang inside of you like a bell billowing out like a nuclear blast
I wasn't sure of you at first, you were adamant you were misleading you were comforting, but the things you became riveted me in such a way that I haven't been able to overcome
I'm guilty of a lot things, but with you I was better
I needed time to become that way I needed time to heal from the loss I had before you
I wasn't given that time, and we see the results now
We see the results of two people, claiming honesty and getting lies