You tell me I'm selfish
But who was left to clean the blood?
Who left their children, for their love twas never good enough!
We were never good enough for you to live...
we were only good enough for you to die.
I took my fill, repeated history
as my uncle before me
walked between life and death
even before I left your womb
I was on the edge, between worlds
lost in the void
My heart stopped twice
And it has tried to stop ever since
all it has ever wanted, was to STOP
You were rushed out
with every peeping light
every flashing siren, every nurse and doctor
There is no power in motherhood
where death is concerned
Tiny little babe, with no air to breathe
no strength to thrive and no life to live
was forced yet to live
By "force" I mean you.
You call me selfish
40 intoxicating pills later
You call me selfish
A bloodied arm later
You call me selfish
23years later.
In truth I was forced to live
You are selfish
You forced me to live
a life you couldn't even live for...
You are selfish
because you failed to pull the plug