i am twirling in a dark space the door is slammed shut, i heard the keys were right down the door there are no windows, there is no laughter
all i have known is my head locked between my thighs, all i have screamed for is the help that never seemed to be enough, all i have felt is the tears running down my face, all i have heard is the laughter - this silence is deafening
i have tried to reach for the door but i can't find it, how do i let the light in? how do i open up my heart? how do i let this pain float away? how do i ask sadness to let me go?
i am stuck in this room, i am stuck against this wall and i can't see, the dark doesn't scare me anymore, this now feels like home.
the dark is my home, don't call my name for i am long gone, all that is left of me is the shell of the person i once was, i am a walking, breathing, corpse
don't ask me to feel, all i remember is pain. don't piece the broken fragments, i want to be gone.