these tears
these heartbreaks
these late nights
this laughter
these last minute plans
these honest conversations
these arrogant arguments
this angst
these failing marks
these first times
this cluelessness
this insignificance
these long days
this rebellion
this love
these feelings
these million words that we speak
in hushed tones or loud voices—
this is youth, in all its glory
and i do not ever want to let
this beautiful chaos go.