I feel like my heart has been screaming...
begging for something to keep it going.
It's been holding onto every cherished moment.
I've been watching sunsets,
just to find value in them that I can't find in myself.
I've spent nights wide awake,
spilling the few tears that almost escaped during the day.
I just need to be held.
To be taken care of.
I need to be able to cry,
and scream,
and tell someone how broken I really am.
I know I can hold things back,
and pretend not to feel.
But I am fragile too.
I'm tired of being strong.
I'm tired of fighting every tear,
in fear of a bad reaction from someone who doesn't feel what I feel.
My heart feels like it's dying,
because there is no escape for it.
It is trapped,
and suffocating.
Maybe I should just let it die..