i thought of how you used to walk me back home everyday from your place because you wanted to spend every second that you could with me before i had to leave i thought of how you would lay in my bed while i was showering, and trying to not let me dress as i smiled and swatted you away i thought of how my mother was happy for me, that i had found somebody now you're not allowed five feet within our building i told you when we met that we were going to have a good summer, and i meant it and we did, though amidst the sunshine there was some rain, yet we stayed, we stayed, because love always reigned now i'm sitting outside in the dark, missing your lips and the way you held my body how you are a fifteen minute walk away that i am no longer allowed to take how the summer died and so did your love for me, though my love for you is still as warm as the summer sun how badly i wanted to be laying in your bed still in the upcoming cold months but now i am no longer welcome, and you only want your blankets or a new body to hold while i lay dead cold and alone, reminiscing that we were good, yet you chose doubt over love, and let the bad times overshadow the good times once and for all