I want to be
the
Cruel type of
Beautiful--
with my lips dripping
Blood and my dress
Trailing jewels,
My insecurities hidden between each
Fold of silk, saying
"I can **** if I must//"
but I won't
The kind where
after crying
my eyes are red-
(Not from sadness
But)
from anger and dissociation,
and people fear what I have not said--
With my
heart stitches torn open, and ink
Seeping through
and I'll never have to
Apologize.