I've stopped the writing, this method of fighting. The things that kept it at bay Have all turned to gray. Thoughts reign over my head, Things that I never would've said. Death lurks in the corners of my mind, I thought I'd left this behind. But no, I've descended again Into this chaos, misery and pain. The ones I love have come with me. I brought them down when they were free. Now, my love, you deserve far more. I'm weak, the very thing against which I swore. Weak, crumbling, and broken, My love, the depth of my pain is unspoken. So I will do as you do And as much as I hate to, I will find serenity in this bittersweet hell. Of this pain I will never tell. So in the end, To you, my love, my best friend, And to the part of myself that I lost, *I'm sorry