It ***** that I miss you, it hurts that I never ever had a chance to kiss you wait a minute, can't believe it... I haven't forgotten your number,not even a digit it angers realising I'm no longer the comics on your thread the best Facebook posts and tweets you read I doubt I'm in your heart when you evicted me from your head it ***** that I'm no longer that call you lust for at daybreak the ears that listened to your endless lamentations the ocean where you channelled your tears when you had a headache miss being the lad you confide in your outrageous contemplation I'd go back if you could return to the lady you used to be sacrificing much of this present cause you mean lots to me I miss the jolly girl who had big dreams and hated reality that you changed is a travesty with utmost fatality you were that lass who understood and explored my despair the only mortal who'd see the invisible stair up my utopian architectural castles hanging in the air whatever happened so much so that you hardly even care you're far albeit I tried to keep us as close as it once was but the more I kept knocking the tighter you locked the doors it hurts that I didn't manage to let you know what lies in my heart can't imagine anyone else loving me without ripping me apart it's sad that you'll never get to know the comfort you brought and the courage with which I rowed when we were in the same boat you locked me out and walked singly into the dawn say for the lack of a better word you termed us apart "alone" yet now you pride in company of your own with a bevy of beauties who kicked me off my throne if I'd known that we'd drift before the epilogue I would have said goodbye to your charm at our prologue it hurts that you don't know that it hurts missing you it hurts but there's nothing much I can do I can't return to the past that is clearly lost neither can I cast out your spell fingers crossed... for I'm still crazily in love with the one I can't have drowning in these tumultuous thoughts barely alive hanging on a thread and hoping I survive