I'm breathing.
That's all I've been doing lately.
Sometimes it's hard to get my next breath to reach my lungs.
That's usually when your name flashes through my head. Or her name. Or the fact that you left so easily. So fast.
I wish this hurt you, too.
And I always try to stop myself when my mind wanders there because I love you.
God I love you.
But I just wanna know that this isn't just hard for me. I wanna know that somewhere you're thinking about me. Somewhere my name flashes through your head and it becomes difficult for your next breath to reach your lungs.
I just wanna know.
Because lately I've been feeling kind of abandoned and it's funny because when you start to believe that maybe people don't always leave, they leave.
And I never thought you'd leave.
But you did.
And I stayed.
And I'm stuck.
I'm stuck on the way you breathe when you're sleeping and how cute your voice is when you first wake up. I'm stuck on the feeling I got when you said you loved me and the way we argued a lot but you never let me go to sleep feeling like you weren't in love with me.
God I love you.
And this is so hard.
This hurts so ******* much.
But I'd take all the pain in the world just to see you happy.
I'll watch you love someone else if that'll make you happy.
All I want is to hear you say I made you happy.
I wish you would come back to me.
I love you.