i've always been the girl who was sneaking out late from home
i've always been the girl smoking cigarettes behind dumpsters to not be caught
i've always been the girl who felt all too lonely and went off with strange men
i've always been the girl who enjoyed meaningless *** for the night yet hurt herself in the morning for it
i've always been the girl seeking some sort of concrete love
i've always been the girl that was told, "love yourself, or no one else will"
i've always been the girl attracted to danger because life was too draining and boring
i've always been the girl seeking approval from others who don't matter
i've always been the girl beating herself up for these things, because she knows they are true
i've always been the girl looking into the mirror and seeing a monster staring right back at her
i'm the girl standing on the railroad tracks wishing for it to end
i'm the girl that is starting to see, she no longer has to be these things