in the desert a spider traps a mouse a woman cries I feel her hot tears on my head they drip drip drip I look out over my balcony wondering, why? what is the point? a man lives alone with his goldfish he hasn't seen a woman naked in years he reads a novel and laughs to himself I hear his laughter It crowds my mind I feel its hands and elbows poke my sides I walk into work I walk out somewhere downtown, a teenager is trying marijuana for the first time I feel the warmth the guilt I feel endless