I want to stop thinking for you.
I want to stop thinking for other people.
I badly want to stop thinking for myself.

What good does it make to sit and think?
It drowns me.
It makes me feel like I don't have a companion.

Do I?
Do I have anyone?
Does anyone love me?
Does my mother love me?
Is it possible that I may be a mistake?
Unplanned and unpleasant?

Is it possible that I make things wrong?
Who needs a person like me.
Who wants to be friends with me.
Who wants to make me their own for the rest of their lives.

Anyone would rather die than raise me.
I want to stop.
I want it all to stop.
I want my clock to stop ticking.
I want my mind to stop thinking.
I want my heart to stop beating.

I just want Everything that I have in me.. To stop.