I want forever with you.

And that thought is beautiful enough to stand on its own, but there's more, thank goodness.
Because with you I can look forward to that future, but still be in love with the moment we're living in, laying in your arms and watching you doze off and listen to your heartbeat. Tonight I wonder what it was in your thoughts that made it start racing for a few moments there.
And I feel no need to rush at all, because I have forever (I think. And I hope). I just want to enjoy where we are now, before we get to where we are next.
And I like right now. It's the most comfortable and exciting anticipation I've ever experienced. Because I think that I'm falling in love. I think maybe that's what it means when I can't help but smile when I look at you, or grin when you caress my face. I think that's what it means that I sleep better in your arms than anywhere in the world, as if my heart is calmer when it can hear yours. I think that maybe this is what love is, wanting this forever with you, and feeling in my gut that there will always be a next moment to anticipate, but also a this moment to enjoy. So I'm enjoying comfortably and hopefully anticipating and wondering. Because I'm curious if you're thinking the same things. Im wondering if you might fall in love with me as well. And I'm hoping that you're crossing your fingers that I'll cross my heart and hope to die with you at my side.
And maybe tomorrow that anticipation will be answered. But for now, I'll go to sleep without you, knowing that one day I might not have to.