Why Do i Cause so much pain To me you see i lose but never gain Family is supposed to be family but not to me they're the ones who hurt me the most even more than i ever could alone. its easier to cry than it is to laugh.
its easier to say bye than it is to lend a hand
its easy to wonder why when you're the victim in the case but when you're the suspect its easier to be chased
whether you get caught depends on what you do
clean up, dont waste time, get in, get out, move.
sometimes the worst gets the better of me too
feels like i land on the sun every time i aim for the moon
and i end up burning to death feeling like the heat just grew. if only i knew. it would be this way.
i never ever would have saved
myself
that day, those days back then
back when failure followed every attempt
to take myself away from this world. one day i'll be where i was trying to go
one day i'll see nothing but darkness
one day i really will be all alone.
life just seems to only get harder
and whether i'll last long is something i just dont know. my thoughts are running around and i keep telling them to stop
i yell and throw all my belongings around
i try to be normal i try not to exist
i try to be happy i dont want to be like this.
im ****** up in every way and no one can help.
i dont know how the **** im gonna make it by myself.