I cry in the shower so you cant hear how sad I am I hide behind the door to my room so you don't see how much of a mess I am I do all these things so you don't have to worry I cry all alone because I don't want to bee week Tired of the hateful words kids speak I cried out to God or whoever was listening that they would take my life as I cried awake at nigh I don't expect you to know this so it might surprise you that when I smiled I was rely trying when I laughed I just tried to bare it Because even thou I hate the world I love you and I could never put you threw that Even when you left me, and asked me to still be friends I grinned and bared it That was the first night that I really cried for something real Don't worry I've lived this long I can deal