I've been awake for too long. Sleeping every night you'd think I would've got the hang of it by now But the last year, sleep has eluded me.
Now I sit pre-dawn hour. Preparing myself. Settling an upset stomach, Turmoil of emotions. A sea of anxiety - Chaotically churning chyme As time goes turning on.
Fooled myself that I was neutral. That I would be happy no matter the outcome. Yet, here I am. Sweating fear. Like I'm out gun so I have to out run bullets.
Radical Critical Acceptance. Is my only line of defense Against the offense of uncertainty No point worrying about what I'm going to be dealt - pointless action. Deal me the cards and I'll work from there.
We're all **** in the new dawn. Naked in our actions, our motives All wanting a plethora of letters In a hundred different combinations.
So as that sun rises Like a single old wise iris Dispelling it's light on me I wonder - what will today bring? Either way, I'm certified that I'm leaving.
Getting my results from my exam in 4 hours after two years of studying. So just a tad nervous.