she doesn't talk about how her dad left immediately after finding out about her existence she doesn't talk about how her mom ignored the not so straight lines on her wrists how she was never confronted about self harming why she's so loud what she doesn't like and does like the bottle under her bed why her curtains are always drawn so close together almost as tight as her throat constricts when she's looked at how her day's been she doesn't talk about all that because she's never asked.