The city comes alive at 5:45 A.M. Outside, Los Angeles Makes her morning cup of coffee, While I sit here, Feeling so useless. In a dark and silent house, I greet the glimmer of dawn With a false forced grin And my eyes sunken in. There's a whole world out there. So much to do. So much to see. Infinite possibilities of what could be. With a whole world of wonder Just outside that door, Why do I find myself thinking of you And that smile that you wear So casually like a plain white tee Yet as elegantly as an expensive gown? An infinite number of steps Await me beyond this porch, But is it worth it without you? Is it pathetic to say That I find it hard to take the first step For we no longer walk same path? No matter how hard I try To shake the thought of having you Out of my head And losing you before I could show you Just how I really feel. I find myself trapped in a house With no walls and no doors. Inside of my mind. Inside of my head. For a few days you made my fantasy Something real. I miss you, I hate you. I miss what never was.