I feel sad again
I don't know why
I play around with it in my head
But there's still no reason why
Maybe it's because I fail at all I try
Maybe it's because I am not special
Maybe it's because I'm too weak
Maybe it's for no reason at all
Maybe my outlook is simply too bleak
Suicide; I haven't thought of how
In a long time
Suicide; I have thought of when
Maybe now
It seems as good a time as any
But how to do it?
The choices again are too many.
I tried it once and failed
(Story of my life)
A halfhearted attempt derailed
I am sad again
I don't know why
I am deep
Below the sky
Help!
I shout
In my head
Help!
I never shout
Out loud
Again why?
Oh let me cry
I want to weep but I can't
And here again WHY
I feel alone
My heart beat frozen
I want to show how I feel
On the out side
But it never seems right
I am a in a solo fight
Again
WHY?
I'm heavy and fat
But I hate the heavy feeling that stops my simile
But I hate the heaving feeling that keeps me in bed
I hate the heavy feeling hovering all the while
I hate the heavy feeling that's rotting my head.
I'm fat and I hate it but I'm sad and I hate it more
This heaving feeling I abhor
Am I rotten?
Am I rotting?
I don't see the point
Is there one?
I am sad
Again
I don't know why
The pain is too much and has been going on for far too long
Good things never last and bad things find a way to stay
I feel abandoned and alone
I feel like I have no home
Lost in a dark forest
It's black and all around are the screams of who I used to be
In the distance I see a tall black tree
On it a rope
I tie it around my neck and set myself free