Why didn't you look when my friends all left me alone to play,
Why didn't you look when my teacher sent more work home everyday,
Why didn't you look when my response was never I'm doing okay,
Why didn't you look when my brown were eyes wet with tears today,
Why couldn't you look my way,

Why didn't you smell my blood stench where I'd ripped my teeth out,
Why didn't you smell my *** stained pants from my nevus doubts,
Why didn't you smell my scented marker stained blouse,
Why didn't you smell my hair around the house,
Why couldn't you smell my thereabouts,

Why didn't you speak up when I couldn't talk,
Why didn't you speak up when I was always being mocked,
Why didn't you speak up when I was always the talk,
Why didn't you speak up when I was falling into shock,
Why couldn't you speak every time I was stalked,

Why didn't you hear about my date,
Why didn't you hear about my embrace,
Why didn't you hear about him going farther then the third base,
Why didn't you hear about how I didn't even want to go to home plate.
Why couldn't you hear about how I got *****,

Why didn't you, ever taste, my pain,
Why didn't you, ever ******* veins,
Why didn't you ever taste, all my restrains,
Why didn't you ever taste, my little remains,
Why couldn't you see,

all the drain,
all the loses from anything I gained
because I still want to jump in front of cars, buses and trains,
but I rarely complain,

because your name,
is only a single blood stain,
out of the many stains,
that have left my heart bleeding in pain,

but I just wish you could look,
possibly,
at me,