I hope you are finally a musician in Los Angeles I hope you are successful WITH him. I hope you learned the true meaning of success and contentment. I hope you can finally wake up without remembering John hanging from a rope. I hope you can finally cope. I hope you can hear someone say "John" and not flood into an ocean of tears. I hope you forgave your dad. It wasn't completely his fault. Alcohol does that to people. I hope you can eat three times a day without crying or hurting. I hope you started eating more than 300 calories a day, you're killing yourself right now. I hope you still sing in the shower and dance in your pj's every morning. I hope all these things come true but mostly I hope you love yourself and are finally HAPPY.
Oh by the way I started writing a memoir for my english class. If you want to know how I dealt with an abusive childhood and my boyfriend committing suicide last year, check it out! http://www.wattpad.com/user/courtch