my slurred words that night
were not let out for your lust
when i said no
teasing was not my intention
i was not asking for more

my mind hazy
and left contemplating
but the alcohol in my veins
would not let out more than a no
my limbs were weak
and you had full control on me

the night went on
and i finally gave in, gave up
your persistence was not fading
and time was not letting me leave

the weight of your body atop of mine
my eyes closed
i wanted to be somewhere else
with every trace your fingers left
i knew i'd scrub that part for a countless number of minutes after

my mind sober enough to know that
this would all be over soon
also sober enough to bash myself
mad for being a tease
or even tempting him

how could i be so dumb
showing so much skin
with my outfit or the way i spoke
how could i not have expected to be touched