Kind and tender offer, truly touches my heart, but my head is too heavy a burden for me to rest on anyone.
I will take that burden as I hold my own. If I were Atlas the Titan holding the sky above I would still take that weight
You are beautiful. Please don't stop being beautiful, love. I no longer have a sky, But you make me want to rebuild mine. If only a piece. You are a star, Shining at night. You are a lamp, Shedding some light. You are a hope, Making me want to fight. Want to fight. But to weak to stand.
I will be your shoulder to cry on I will be your arm to lean on I will hold your hand when things get rough I will light the way in your darkest times I will be here to the end
I just want to cry but the tears won't come.
Why cry darling? You have no reason to shed tears
I'm so broken, ***, I'm two shards away from gone.
I can be the glue that holds you together. < holds you close > I will be here
Glue always seems to wash away with me < curls into a ball >
Then I'm industrial welding. I'll be here for as long as you need and longer
Darling... you are a lovely piece of humanity, never lose that about you.
*Please just hang on [my real name]. I couldn't bear losing you.
Losing you hurts like hell, love. </3 What if I still need you? What then? - - - Some exchanges from earlier November, when I was "unwell." I wanted to **** myself, and when I felt like no one else was, Andy was there to give me reason not to. The BOLD words are Andy's, because everything he said is boldly imprinted into my heart. - - - ~ 1 A.M. (EST) 12/30/2014 was the last I ever got to hear from him. I want to remember that. - - -