When I feel the sun striking my shoulders, My cheeks
When I feel the sweat trickling down my Forehead and my lungs gasping for air,
Expanding and compressing,
My throat burning,
Screaming for the water I left at home,  when my legs ache and I feel a sort of
Hunger in my belly
And my ankles are no longer stable,
And when I look up and curse
The cloudless sky

I stop.
I find grass and look up at the cloudless sea of blue above me and the bright sun that's turned my skin to freckles.
And I remember that this is my cloudless sky, my yellow sun.  

I remember that only for one second will I be able to experience the world exactly how it is right now.  And never again in my numbered days will I see a blue sky and shining sun at one o'clock on July twentieth as a fifteen year old girl.

This life is mine and I will make the most of every day I'm allowed to have it.

Closed tight and green,
Every day you showered me
With kisses.
You let me feel the warmth
Of your sunshine lips,
Allowed me to
plant my roots
in your steady breath.

You coaxed me,
Warmed me,
Loved me
into blooming.

Still every day you thank me
For showing you my velvet petals
And praise me
For my soft shade of pink.

I could only have bloomed
For you.

You
are the greatest treasure of my life.

I chose to be brave and indulge myself
in the most volatile, strange
voyage.

A kind of journey that brings amazing highs,
sometimes tragic lows,
just like the waves and tides.

But the desire of acquiring you,
my treasure,
is so great that there is no way
I would shift my sails.

He told me over and over
"I love you."
"I love you so much Pearl."
"I love you."

He named every piece of me.
*******, hips, thighs, stomach.
"Youre so soft and beautiful."
He kissed all of me so sweetly.

My body was pink and warm and flushed.
We cried and kissed.

We make love this way.