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  Aug 2014 Sarah
SMSVS
Maybe I'd **** myself later
or tonight
or tomorrow
maybe even next week
or a month from now
or even a year.

But then that would mean
that all the ****
that I did
to start again
would be wasted.

So no,
I'm tired of running.
from this sick life,
and the stupid lemons it keeps throwing

Where the hell does it even get the lemons.
Sarah Aug 2014
i want to get rich enough
to buy my mum all the things
she deserves
a nice house, an expensive car,
elegant dresses, fancy perfume

i want to be smart enough
to be able to get a scholarship
and study at the best college i can get into

i want to be mature enough
to understand that love doesn't last
yet i can love you like i have a thousand souls

i want to be stable enough
both financially, and mentally
so i can take my mother and my sister
to a place where they'll never have to struggle

i want to be forgiving enough
so i can visit my father
and bring him all the things he needs
just because i can

i want so much in life,
but most of all
*i want to be happy first
Sarah Aug 2014
Someday, you will leave.
And on that day, I will still hope that your absence only means your daily short trip to the mall, where you leave me hanging for hours as you share your secrets with your friends.
Sarah Jul 2014
I sleep in a room where my cousins saw an elderly lady sitting on the window. Decayed face, messy long hair, creepy posture. A ghost, they said.

I used to be afraid to spend the night in that room alone, for I couldn't imagine how it would be if the creature showed up in front of me. What if it ate me? What if it took me to another world?

But it was years ago. I sleep there now, in a room where my cousins saw a horrible creature that lurked in the dark. The only difference, is that I'm no longer afraid.

The actual monsters are lurking inside my mind.
I really do sleep in a haunted room.
  Jul 2014 Sarah
Taylor
You may have noticed, that words come less freely now.

That's because the pain has reached a level beyond them.
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