who am i?
i am a failure
who can't even make it to dean's list
after i told myself to twice.
who am i?
i am an irresponsible adult
who can't even help
around a house that is not my own.
who am i?
i am an agnostic
stuck in a delusion, not in a god
but in a world where i am actually good enough.
who am i?
i am a friendless girl,
with a defense mechanism
of exterior toughness.
who am i?
i am a self-critical person,
that does nothing right
and never improves.
who am i?
*i am a person who feels
confident in my head, but actually
small enough to crush outside.
i feel so ******* stupid, always.