What is this desire?
I am in a washing machine being spun around in mixed feelings

You bring out the most joyful moments in my life, yet I feel the most sorrow when I think I am losing you

Even though I'm hurting inside, a part of me that was once a pitch black, empty abyss has now been lit with a fire greater than a thousand suns

You light my desires,
You light my *destiny

I knew too well that somewhere
along the line I had lost it
I took a wrong turn
ventured into the unknown
played with aliens
& enticed monsters
until then did I crumble
in a world foreign to my heart
I knew too well that somewhere along the line
I had lost the way
If I knew where
I swear by my vanity
I would have raced back in time
just to turn back & take right turn cause
******* I took a wrong turn

was it the dream that recurs itself even during the day
the love I once held & lost quite inexplicably
the prince charming I lost
the thoughts that haunt me .....
I wonder
I only wonder....was I still dreaming when everyone was
up making their dreams come true......


**NIGHTMARES

I only wish we could go back to kindergarten class where the major worry was the colorful pin on my hair
Where they were scarred knees and not broken hearts
Where writing my name was the greatest challenge
I wish it were those days when after a bad day I could just run into mummy's arms and that hug would always say evee will be okay . I wish I could go back to the days I believed in the sanctity and innocence of love . The days when I was in love and stayed faithful to one man  who still loves me with his all but cheated on him. The first man to ever kiss me ,Daddy . I only wish time could reverse so that I can relive the unforgettable moments I lost unknowingly . **My greatest wish

I'm not sure how it happened
Must have been an accident
Between the long stories and
Crazy laughs
That is when amazing Cupid must
Have aimed an arrow at us
And now we in it to stay

Today I told someone I loved them, and I ment it more than I could ever describe in words.

But there was a niggling thought in the back of my head.

"It's too soon," it whispered.

"You should have waited. It's too soon."

People will judge me. They will think I'm foolish.

But who is anyone else to tell me about how I love someone?

And since when does falling in love have a set rules?

Why should I let society decide that my love isn't real, because they don't belive someone can feel this strongly for somone so soon?

It took me eight months to say it to my X.

And I can honestly say that feeling was like a drop in the ocean, compared to how I feel now.

So yes you can say it's too soon.

Frankly I don't give a ****.