all i want to do
is fall into your eyes
to drown and wash myself
of the things i have been living in these past four months
to dive into the golden chocolate lake of your understanding
because you are the only one who knows me so well
to open my mouth and eyes and ears
and be purged of every bitterness lodged there.
all i want to do
is sit quietly and watch you paint
there is no need for conversation
to fill an awkward silence
it is only a beautiful silence
filled with our warm and lovely thoughts.
all i want to do
is lie in the darkness and hear your voice
to laugh loudly and cry quietly
our voices growing fainter and more slurred
as the indigo night slips by.
you are so far away
and the last time i saw you
all i could carry was pain in my heart
the hurt of too many misunderstandings
and the sorrow of my losses
but have i lost your love? no.
because i think you are the only person in the world
who understands me, who actually hears what I say.
i never thought this was possible.
i’ve read thousands of books, and some of them spoke of this thing,
but i never thought it was actually real.
but here you are, there you are,
so far away but always close
because we are close in our hearts and in our minds
you can travel so far away i cannot hear your voice
but we are forever this close
and i don’t care if it’s weird
or unusual
or sweet and adorable
it is only the most important thing in the world to me.
i wrote this for a very important person in my life