I finally know what it's like to be loved more.

Some days it makes me feel safe

Other days stuck

But it's nice to have someone treat you like their world.

How do you tell someone

They are your favorite person

Without telling them that you love them.

I think I would risk everything

To just taste you.

Everyday I have to tell myself

The good outweighs the bad

That when I'm sad it's okay to cry

That crying is safer

I wake up everyday

Amazed I made it this far

For so many years I swore

I'd end my life

Every cut along the way to a finite journey

I tell myself every day

I am strong

And I will not let monsters haunt me

Even if they might

I tell myself that today

Is so much brighter than it could have been

And that I still have so much time left to figure out

What my heart wants

And what my soul needs.

I'm scared that I can feel my heart banging inside my chest
with every word you say

Or the ones you don't.