I look for you
in everyone.

My hand under the blanket

As I imagine you

You're smile

You're body

Every touch we've never had

By body tantalizing

Goosebumps everywhere

It's so wrong to think of you

While I lie next to him

But my body

It doesn't care

It's fun just to imagine

I hold in your name as it all collapses

I dare not let him know why it happened so fast.

He was imperfect
He was young
She loved him
She was crazy
She wasn’t so pretty
He loved her

He had doubts
He had challenges
She loved him
She was naïve
She was carefree
He loved her

He was smart
He was cute
She loved him
She got brains
She had talent
He loved her

He lied
He cheated
She loved him
He became rude
He was difficult
She loved him

He was scared
He was reckless
She cared
He was arrogant
He was insensitive
She was hurt

He ignored her
He hurt her more
She became different
He cheated more
He cheated carelessly
She ignored him

He became scarce
He cut off ties
She survived
He was addicted
He was pitiful
She had empathy

He fell
She brought him up
He got sick
She nursed him to health
She slipped
He didn’t catch her
He got into trouble
She turned her back on him

He wanted her back
She didn’t
It was too late
She felt nothing for him

She was,
A diamond he got
She was,
A diamond he lost

My mistake
Was loving you too hard.
My regret
Was never telling you
That I needed love back.

I love you
But I don't know if I'm in love with you

It breaks my heart
Knowing I could break yours.

They mean the hazel sparkle in your eyes

They mean the way you smile at me

And make me giddy

They mean the way you run your hand through your hair before you show me something

They mean your beauty could **** hearts.

While I can never forget the ecstasy of your body wrapped up in mine, it is not that in which I miss the most. At least, not especially.

More than anything I miss talking to you, words just poured out of me with you. I always told you the truth even if it hurt.

We live these separate worlds now, our love too toxic for this lifetime. But I miss those ears listening to my heart. Always knowing me better than I knew myself.